Where I see myself in 10 years

My goals in life are to become a successful author or musician. I would like to become those things because I like to think that I put my feelings into words very well, I'm actually working on a novel called "all she ever wanted"? Now for where I see my self in ten years, I would simply be dead or very successful, I Bellevue this because for me there is no in between . If I die that means I was very sick, killed, or everything that was eating away at my subconscious finally got to me. If I'm successful that means Versace life's hardships r I had the successful publishment of my book or music. Before I would think lowly  of my intellectual capability by saying I didn't know my aspirations and that my life was just null and void but now what was once my weakness is now my strong suit. Now that might fuel problems later in life but it fuels my writing and art. If I become an author or musician I want my work to speak to youth in a positive yet relatable way all while venting, myself.